I watched the last space shuttle launch ever on July 8th. Its profoundness was lessened, however, when the clouds obscured any view of it. Only two days later, when my dad returned from visiting family in New Hampshire, did I receive a space shuttle chocolate pop (pictured above) and could pretend like it was the real deal. Like I hadn't missed witnessing history firsthand and like I hadn't had to resort to a live broadcast on the television, viewable to all.
I feel like that day was the closest I will ever come to understanding the emotion that everyone in the Harry Potter fandom will experience July 15th. Believe it or not, ten years of my life have ended too.
I know no one really cares about my "fandom", though.
And why should you?
It just feels strange; strange to be, in part, alienated from a community, the Internet, that I turned to when I was feeling alienated from my real life. That said, I don't begrudge the fervent love for Harry Potter nor do I expect anyone to downplay the significance of this final movie release. It's a big 'effin deal. As a result, I'm just choosing to spend less time on the computer and more time reading, purging and creating. At least until things have calmed down.
So is this my elaborate way of saying I'm taking a hiatus from the Internet?
Well, no. Not exactly.
Because like any addiction, you can't just quit cold turkey and be successful. Instead, it's going to be a gradual departure from all the various sites I love dear. I will probably still post and actively check Facebook for the next week. My progress will be slow at first. I know this.
Please don't think the Harry Potter craziness was the only reason for this decision. And please don't think I'm just using it as an excuse to leave. I love all my blogging friends so much, which is why this is gonna be hard.
My decision is based mainly on the fact that I have less than a month until school starts again. Yes, less than a month! This means I have less time to complete college applications like I promised I would, less free time to go on adventures and less time to relax.
I'm simply running out of time.
So for now my priorities are to finish Nicola's package, to finally update my Moleskine and to read the books on my AICE English Lit list.
See you on the flip side.